Depression

Depression:(1) : a state of feeling sad (2) : a mood disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty with thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal thoughts or an attempt to commit suicide.

We all have our own idea of what it means to be depressed and that’s because we all experience and deal with it differently.

As a teenager it can be really easy to fall into depression because being a teenager means that you find yourself on a roller coaster of emotions.

Was you dumped? Did you fail an exam? Are you being bullied? These seem like the obvious reasons why someone in their teens may become depressed.

But it’s not quite that simple. I myself was a victim of depression. I wasn’t dumped, i didn’t fail an exam and i wasn’t being bullied.

There are many stages of depression, some are more serious than others. However, that doesn’t mean that someone who viewed as being “less” depressed than another individual is not facing a constant state of agony.

Nothing hurts more than the feeling of being trapped in your own life.

I became depressed when i experienced something which turned my world upside down and found that my reacting came in may forms of emotions: sadness, guilt, regret and self loathing.

Staying in bed seemed like the only solution and thats what i did, well at least for a few weeks.

Then i became addicted to exercising, particularly running because it seemed to be the only time i could escape my own thoughts, you know that saying…”Headphones in, world out”?

I also indulged in A LOT of junk food because Pizza will always be there for you and chocolate never makes you cry.

But after a few months i found that time does heal pain, which meant i had reached another stage.

I was suddenly numb and i appeared to be on auto pilot. I got out of bed, i got dressed, i did what i had to do, i came home, i went to the gym, i ate, i went back to sleep.

It became a morbid routine but it was easier for me to pretend i was okay then admitting that i wasn’t.

And i think that is the main issue with depression. People don’t like to feel weak, defeated and vulnerable, when in reality it’s this denial that makes us more depressed.

My recovery was kind of weird, one day i just snapped out of it. I realised that i was in control of my own happiness and I needed to stop depending on other things and other people to fulfill this need.

You are in control of your own thoughts and although it may be difficult you need to try and see your world from a different perspective.

Write down all the things you have to be grateful for and then never take them for granted!! Most importantly, learn to love yourself.

During my battle, I would often find myself on google, asking crazy questions like “How long does it take to get over someone?” or “what things help you feel happy?”. But the true answer was literally always right under my nose. It was me.

Don’t ever feel ashamed for being depressed, whatever the reason. Accept it, get help if you need to and learn to move on.

Try to cherish this short life we have been given.

Use all your strength to climb out of that black hole you have buried yourself in and remember that you aren’t the only one.

Make changes to your life in order to make sure there isn’t anything in the way of you finding your own happiness, even if that means cutting ties with people.

It’s also important to remember that “happiness” means something different for everyone, so when making decisions about your life make sure they are for YOU and not someone else. Be selfish.

You can also try out a few of these tips which i used when i was recovering…

1.Eat healthy, it makes you feel better!
2.Exercise, it releases “happy chemicals” into your brain
3.Be around friends. I know it’s easy to isolate yourself, i did it too. But if you have good friends then spending time with them should make you feel better, even if thats means just being able to get things off your chest!

As cliche as it sounds…we really do only get one chance to live this life. So we can either dwell on the past or look to the future and know that tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to start being happy.

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